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Why do things by halves?

Because it’s easier?!?!? Now I’m not the kind of girl who does this by halves, never have done, prob never will do.

Before I launch into why, two slight detours.

I went to the gym this morning to break my Zumba virginity. Have you ever done a zumba class? It’s the most ridiculous and hilarious form of exercise I have ever partaken in. Don’t get me wrong it seemed to be a good work out judging the fact I was sweating profusely but it’s just utterly ridiculous. All hip swaying and bum shaking (or wobbling), I was crying with laughter.

The second just to share how pathetic I'm being, I was invited out to a party by an almost friend (I say almost because I've met her a couple of times out rambling and once on a rambling social evening for an hour), the fact it was a 65 year old birthday party for one of her colleagues is beside the point. I was invited out and initially said yes, and then hair/make up done about to get dressed and I became very insecure and cancelled. I feel terrified of meeting new people, getting out of my comfort zone and out into the big wide (scary) world. I feel pathetic, also I feel guilty for saying yes and then my fear taking over and cancelling at the last minute *sigh* I know I've got to do it, get out and meet people, socialise, learn how to be single, but for tonight I want to sit in my PJs (complete with a full face of make up and beautifully set hair), anyway enough of that and on with the not doing things by halves...

All change here in the Queenie household, and being off for 11 days has given me the perfect opportunity to ‘personalise’ the flat. And do I start small? Who me?

So yesterday I moved the bedroom round, had a big sort out, bought new bedding, and added the Queenie stamp. The now ex OH detested leopard print, so as you can see from the photos below I’ve added a splash or two here and there:

Polka dot bedding from Wilkos, leopard print furry throw reduced to £2 each in Primark

I can now have ALL my shoes and boots on display, HURRAH!

I rescued the chair from outside and covered it with a throw, well if someone was getting rid of it away I thought I’d find a use for it!

I’m quite happy with the way the room has turned out.

I then decided to see if the tiles in the bathroom would come down and they do. I have loathed them from the day I moved in. The are just self adhesive floor tiles which were stuck to the wall by the previous tenant, good for the goose good for the gander so they speak, I’ll be replacing them with the same in a different style. They can be picked up for £1 a pack in the discount stores such as Poundland and the 99p store. Mum is going to come and help me at the end of May, which is a long time to live in bathroom decorating hell, but they had to come down. The leopard print shower curtain is a new addition, picked up yesterday in Primark for £4, I was just trying it out

Today I’ve made a start on the feature wall in my kitchen, the colour is vintage rose (looks more reddy in this pic but it’s actually quite pinky) I’ve got the rest of the cutting in to do and another coat. I had stopped for a much needed rest.

And if that wasn’t enough I’ve got a huge pile of stuff to ebay from my sorting out yesterday.

I’ll be looking forward to going back to work for a rest!

Ta ta for now

Queenie xx


Ferry...across the Mersey

Well Helllllooo ladies (and gentlemen if you’re reading).

Firstly to answer Alex’s question, yes I’ll be staying in Liverpool, until at least the end of next March. 6 weeks ago I started a fixed term contract with the company I had been temping for the 8 months previous, and I :heartheartheart: my job so would be foolish to walk away from something I love to do to nothing. Plus I’m pretty much a nomad, where is home? When I think of *home* nothing comes anymore because I’ve moved about so much and my family no longer live where I grew up...but anyway I guess home is here for now, and it’s about taking the time to both add a personal touch to the flat, and begin the laborious and terrifying challenge of creating a life for myself.

What actually make the effort to meet people and make friends?!? Scary prospect, very! What if they don’t like me...the insecurity runs deep. I don’t drink which pretty much rules out the usual quick and easy way of getting to know people BUT I have joined a young persons rambling club and am slowly getting to know people through that. I guess it’s about taking risks and saying YES to life more.

But anyway...that’s not what this blog is about (not that I really know what it is about any more).

Shoes....of course, when everything else is falling apart there is always SHOES (well usually but not in my case at the moment), that and a nice cup of herbal tea.

I recently purchased a gorgeous pair of LK Bennett leopard print peep toe shoes from a charity shop while I was visiting my mum, they are a size 5...I’m a size 6. Can I squeeze my lumpy heffer feet into them...can I hell, try as I might :o( I knew at the time they were a squeeze but foolishly bought them anyway. Now they are sitting here looking all pretty and gorgeous, and I can’t even take them out to play. The sensible part of me knows I should just ebay them, the shoe princess inside cries out that I need to keep them, even if all I can do is admire and stroke. What do you think?

Also I recently popped by Irregular Choice Cherry. Now it’s got to be said I am not a huge fan of Irregular Choice shoes but when I saw these beauties on ebay I fell in lurve. Can anyone tell me what the deal is with sizing...these are a size 6, my size, but they pinch my left foot after a couple of hours of wear, the right fits perfectly but not the left, why God damn you! I may have to re-ebay :( but I love them, sooooo much *sobs*

Carboot season is back HURRAH! I attended my first (hopefully of many) this year on Sunday. It was my birthday and what else should a girl be doing except tramping round a field rummaging through other people’s personal possessions. Three and a half hours later, and a huge bag of stuff, here are my faves from the weekend charity shop/carboot hunt:

Vintage St Michaels cami, £1.49 from the Salvation Army

Snapped up these C&A leather boots for £2, pretty good condition, no idea how old they are

Perfect for Summer Next dress for £1, plan to team it with a big red belt to funk things up a bit

Love this shirt, also from the Salvation Army charity shop for a teeny £2.49. No label and looks hand made, cant wait to wear it.

There are lots more things BUT you'll have to wait for those...I'll be back soon hopefully with an outfit post if I'm feeling confident enough, or perhaps just more of my general ramblings.

Queenie xx


Crawling back to blogland with a broken heart

Long time no post, am crawling back to blogland after a loooong time away.

Life since I've been AWOL in a nutshell: laptop broke, went on holiday to dom rep, got engaged, laptop got fixed, got a second job, gave up second job when day job was made perm, mum had a failed op, gained 32lb, lost 17 of those again and counting, joined a rambling group, split up and (now ex) OH moved out 2 weeks ago, just been to my first carboot of the year, am planning to decorate the flat, am off for 11 days over easter!

And breathe.

I have been following you guys, just not posting myself, but I'm planning to blog more, I've missed it and I've missed you all. Funny how small and empty life can become when all you've really invested in is a relationship and that goes.

But anyway, I should really be getting ready for work :)

Queenie xxx